You _assume_ that, at AWS re:Invent, you were a victim of racism, but you don't really _know_ that is so. Nonetheless your default stance was, and remains today

You _assume_ that, at AWS re:Invent, you were a victim of racism, but you don't really _know_ that is so. Nonetheless your default stance was, and remains today, to _assume_ racism. Also you speak of "constant racism". So, even when you're alone, do you feel the pressure of "constant racism"? You cannot change the past and you cannot change how others act, but you can change how you think. Is it good for you to have a base assumption that you will be racially discriminated against? Are those the color of glasses that you want to wear in this modern world? What will it gain you? There have been studies that show that it best to take the optimistic assumption: e.g., in this instance that they indeed were limiting the number of wristbands. Being a "realistic optimist" is a healthy frame of mind. And really, if a denied wristband is the worst instance of perceived insult that you have experienced, count yourself lucky. I've been treated far, far worse at conferences, not because of racism, but because people can be jerks.