You have to make an effort to find something that excites you or you look forward to. Preferably on a regular basis, daily would be the ultimate goal. Just thin

You have to make an effort to find something that excites you or you look forward to. Preferably on a regular basis, daily would be the ultimate goal. Just think, waking up to something you look forward to every day! Jumping out of bed every morning, looking forward to the day. What do you like to do? Do you have any previous hobbies? Start a side project (that you can finish) and look forward to working on after work. Join an online game community (Team Fortress, Overwatch, Call of Duty, etc). Don't like games, what about a book or movie club? Do you have any recreational sports leagues you can join? I used to play ice hockey, but wouldn't mind joining a roller hockey league where I am (Austin) or maybe flag football or kickball even. Is there something you want to do or experiment? I've always wanted to build something with Lego Mindstorms and program it myself. When was the last time you went to a meet up or hung out with some friends? When were happiest? What were you doing? Who were you with? Is there anything you can do at work to make it more enjoyable? Can you ask to be moved to another department? Take on new or different challenges? Do you feel challenged at work? Can you tell someone you want to try something new? Maybe just try and take things less serious. Don't be so defensive and perfect about life. Have some fun and relax. Do you like comics, movies, anime, books (fiction), video games? Maybe you can try one and experiment. For me, I want to go back and try and play and beat all the old NES and Genesis games I never finished as a kid because I was too impatient. These are just random ideas. For example, I have a backlog of video games, anime, comics, and side projects. I also have just found a new friend and we already made plans to go out. I'm moving into a new apartment that's an upgrade from my current and it has Google Fiber, I'm super excited for that. My parents are bringing me a couch and TV in a month too and I look forward to sitting in something besides my bed or desk chair. Not to mention look forward to seeing them for the first time in a year. I'm joining a new gym and look forward to meeting and seeing new people there as well as partaking in a class or two for fun, it's a good way to meet other people. I try and attend meet ups when nothing else is keeping me busy or I'm bored. Bottom line, you have to try and stay busy and you have to make the effort. It requires work if you aren't use to it. You can't dwell on the negatives like you seem to be doing. Good luck, I hope I sparked some ideas for you.