The urge to commit suicide is not strong, it's an amusing thought that crosses the mind. I am highly unlikely to do it because I would rather kill myself for a

The urge to commit suicide is not strong, it's an amusing thought that crosses the mind. I am highly unlikely to do it because I would rather kill myself for a cause than committing suicide, like getting into military and killing some terrorists. Seems I might have a hero complex :) So I won't go down and out silently.