Yeah I've somehow incorporated depression into my life. Suicide is now always a choice, I have a few plans if things go really, really bad. Things are also som

Yeah I've somehow incorporated depression into my life. Suicide is now always a choice, I have a few plans if things go really, really bad. Things are also somewhat more interesting since if I'm anxious about something, I remember that hey, I am dead, whether its 50 years from now or tomorrow (I think Bushido had something similar?). Nothing really matters so stop worrying and try to enjoy the grind...