I'm not awesome and chill -- I'm just old. And I am very very afraid that the rules are changing under my feet and I don't have a handbook. I don't even know h

I'm not awesome and chill -- I'm just old. And I am very very afraid that the rules are changing under my feet and I don't have a handbook. I don't even know how to count teams that large -- I suspect the way I process "team" and you do are different. I was getting my sea legs back when I was in semi-conductor, and (I don't recall, to tell the truth, but I think I'd never had a girl friend), I asked a lady for a date. She was very cool and said "no", and that she had a boy friend. I was a little mortified that I didn't already know this, but she was a (the?) sales engineer on on of my two accounts (Canon and Sony were "mine"), and I don't think it would have occurred to me to NOT work with her. I guess I'm saying that I was embarrassed as hell, but it was my fault for asking for a date in the first place. I am so sorry you had people (probably people like me) get their own ass embarrassed and treat you like that.