Psychopaths have a lot more experience at being psychopaths than regular people have had experience at dealing with psychopaths. From what you describe, I don'

Psychopaths have a lot more experience at being psychopaths than regular people have had experience at dealing with psychopaths. From what you describe, I don't think you were weak or cowardly, just inexperienced. There is absolutely no shame in that. Hindsight is useful for learning, but not for admonishment (by yourself or others). You had to make lots of decisions fast, amongst a bunch of bad choices with unknown outcomes. Your success rate for surviving bad situations so far is 100%, so don't beat yourself up too much, and tell the retrospective armchair philosophers to jog on.