I was born in communist Poland and back then everybody was catholic there, and so was I. So everyone had to go to the church, so I did too. I listened what the

I was born in communist Poland and back then everybody was catholic there, and so was I. So everyone had to go to the church, so I did too. I listened what the preast had to say about the heaven and the hell, but particularly that he said one would end up there for eternety. That sunday lying in my bed I couldn't sleep. I was thinking about this infinity thing. I thought to my self, going to hell is bad because you get tortured and stuff, but going to heaven for eternity isn't really much better either, because it never ends! This was so frightening to me I couldn't sleep. I was ok with going to hell for some really long amount of time, say 10k years, as long as I knew it would end some day. But being in heaven for ever? I still get a bad feeling when I remember my thoughts from back then, that would be unbearable, you couldn't even commit suicide, nothing would change anything, you'd be trapped forever with no hope of escape. That was when I was seven or something, when I was eleven we moved to Germany where not everybody was catholic, half of the people were protestants. Then later when I was 27, so 10 years ago, I moved to Sweden where most people are atheists, and with time I also liberated myself from this scary religion. Now I feel really happy about the fact that there most probably is no god and thus no inifinite amount of time in heaven either.