I'm determined to show people that death does not need to be a sad or depressing thing. Loss is, of course. I know my kids are going to suffer. I know they're g

I'm determined to show people that death does not need to be a sad or depressing thing. Loss is, of course. I know my kids are going to suffer. I know they're going to be angry, confused, maybe even self-destructive at times, when they realize over and over that the person who steered them has gone, and they have to learn to steer themselves. Yet it's part of the order of things, isn't it? Loss forces us forwards. My kids are strong and they know it and they'll get courage in their darkest moments by remembering that I was never afraid, angry, or self-destructive, when I was dying. This part, it is playful and joyful, and I'm so incredibly happy to be part of it. And I'm not on any drugs, just a large carton of Ayran my son bought me from the baker this morning. :)