Here's 0.02c from a lifelong depressed person. I'm still figuring out the path as you are! Absolutely find some sort of physical activity and do it every day.

Here's 0.02c from a lifelong depressed person. I'm still figuring out the path as you are! Absolutely find some sort of physical activity and do it every day. Even if it's a run for 30 minutes. Even if it's a walk for 30 minutes. You need to get that blood flowing. As a marathon runner who started running to quit smoking, one of the greatest side effects I've discovered from consistient physical activity (aside from increased female attention, of course!) is the seemingly unwarranted boost of endorphins and happy juice throughout the day. Definitely look into something you can do physically. Get out of the house. Go work at a cafe. Talk to people. Even if the conversation leads to you talking about some of the problems you feel you're facing. Confronting the rut you're in now with others is an immediately identifiable issue, and we all go through it. Absolutely get the notion that you're the only one with sadness inside out of your head because it's a selfish and incredibly misguided view. We all get there, and most reasonable people are immediately compassionate about it. Wake up early. Get out of bed by 8 a.m. at the latest, every day. Have a routine before you sit down to work and stick by it. It can be as simple as cooking breakfast for yourself. Don't forget to breathe. You're learning how to be your own best friend. It's time to learn how to care for yourself and be the best version of yourself, for others (and also for you!).