If they're a normally scheduled meeting it seems odd that you would be so anxious about them. I could totally see the anxiety if they weren't part of a routine,

If they're a normally scheduled meeting it seems odd that you would be so anxious about them. I could totally see the anxiety if they weren't part of a routine, where if one suddenly popped up you'd be wondering what it could mean. But if you always had a meeting on the books every week or couple of weeks, it would seem like it would just be a normal run of the mill check in. Then again, if you weren't working with your boss that frequently or your one on ones were generally most of the relationship you had with them, I could see how they'd cause anxiety. Hopefully you are able to find a cadence with them, or a boss, that eases the anxiety and provides you with connection and value.