I'm not, at least not really. Started to code at the age of 15, been doing this for 16 years everyday now. Currently working in a big corp, where you have the f

I'm not, at least not really. Started to code at the age of 15, been doing this for 16 years everyday now. Currently working in a big corp, where you have the feeling that people won't let you bring any positive change, won't let some innovation coming to their desks, you just have to do what people have been doing for years because "hey we've been doing it for years for a reason". It just feels like trying and trying but nothing will change. Its been pounding on me for years now. I have no reason to complain yet I feel sad, empty, I reckon I'm useless at my job and yet my boss is way more than happy of what I'm accomplishing, I don't understand. I wanted something great from my career, I thought I'd be surrounded by passionate people, but to this day it's been a huge joke, you just have to do what someone higher in the food chain tells you to do and use that bullsh*t bloatware because he's got some present from another bigcorp placing its product making you more entreprisey and more agile, to no avail. You just have to accept choices made by someone. You just have to contemplate others on the market using something exciting while you're stuck with Java 6 with no one around you wanting to move on. I feel I have no reason to complain, because life could be so much more painful, I'm well paid and I could be working on an assembly line for way less or living in a country where fear for your life is the only thing in your mind all day long. But... It's just that it's not the big dream I was expecting, and I feel that for someone not working in the bay area but following HN all day long, I'm suffering from an immense sadness of not being part of it, it's like I'm just watching people succeed on my TV screen, eating junk food. I know this is a biased vision and a lot of people aren't happy there too, I just can't help feeling this.