I'm in what seems like a similar situation. I've had an idea for ten years and have actively or passively worked toward the direction of implementing it since t

I'm in what seems like a similar situation. I've had an idea for ten years and have actively or passively worked toward the direction of implementing it since then. At this point the idea has almost become like a living thing in my mind, and when I get distracted from it with other things like work (or even just relaxing instead of thinking about in my spare time) those things suffer, too. It's like the drive towards the idea fuels other, seemingly unrelated aspects of daily life. I don't think of it as an "it has me or I have it" situation - it's become almost a symbiotic relationship. I help bring the idea to life, it helps me maintain focus and improve knowledge in other aspects of my life. If I abandon it other things seem to suffer, too.