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I'm in a similar position. I wanted desperately to get out of my last company, which was a very abusive environment. So I switched jobs and landed at a company
by amyjess 11y ago
I'm in a similar position.
I wanted desperately to get out of my last company, which was a very abusive environment. So I switched jobs and landed at a company that's treated me better than any other employer I've had... except I'm now totally burned out on the work. It's all academic/research stuff, which I'm terrible at and have zero interest in, and it's basically killed my interest in my job. I'm getting ready to start sending my resume out, but I have a strong feeling the burnout will just follow me wherever I go even if my next job has me working on systems/infrastructure stuff again (which I worked on at my previous jobs and liked).
Also, over a year since I left my last job, I still have a lot of emotional scars left from the abusive way my last employer treated me.
Another thing that's got me is my age. I'm 31, and I'm still working a fairly junior position. I actually don't mind that. I have no career ambition, and as long as I'm making enough money to comfortably pay my bills, I couldn't care less about chasing a higher salary. I'm content to work junior coding positions for the rest of my life. Unfortunately, as I get older, employers aren't going to see it that way. They're going to wonder why I haven't advanced into a leadership role at my age, and I'm dreading the day I get asked that in an interview. It also means I can't really talk about career stuff with my friends, because most of the CS people I went to college with are now in leadership roles or other senior technical positions, and I have much more in common with people who started college the year after I graduated (and I've done an absolutely terrible job of making new friends since graduating college, so most people I know are people I went to college with).
I have a feeling that if I wasn't completely aromantic, I'd be happiest living like Mrs. Roberts from xkcd, as a housewife who still hacks on personal projects for fun.