It sounds like you're depressed -- I don't know if that's accurate, but it's my interpretation of the feeling(s) that you've described. If you think depression

It sounds like you're depressed -- I don't know if that's accurate, but it's my interpretation of the feeling(s) that you've described. If you think depression or a similar experience may be part of this, I recommend either talking to a mental health professional or seeking out resources geared toward depressives.