I should be very happy. Oh! I live in misery. I have some bums I know that can testify the same: having time and no money sux. I have written Klines of codes

I should be very happy. Oh! I live in misery. I have some bums I know that can testify the same: having time and no money sux. I have written Klines of codes in a lot of language, but writing big brother software that impoverish people even if my boss gives me extra time for my life balance makes me sad. These studies focus on biased population that don't experience poverty, nor seems to care about the others either by ignorance or by convenience (which is worse). I am ruined, anxious, not(happy) (which is different from unhappy) ... but I still have the will to be able to help people suffering more than me... and worst of all I cannot even donate my blood, I come from Europa in Canada. But not being happy does not mean being down. I am superficially unhappy, I will find a way to make things better for both me and people I meet. Happyness is like rain, boring and cold. But it makes you enjoy the sun. I am not happy and I am angry. It makes me feel as alive as when I wed with the one I love. Being told that not being happy is negative, is the same as if I was told to cut my balls because dick is so much more important. Sorry, I like them both.