With all due respect to your situation -- and not intended in the least to belittle either your suffering, or the thought you put into the decisions you made --

With all due respect to your situation -- and not intended in the least to belittle either your suffering, or the thought you put into the decisions you made -- perhaps the bigger mistake was not going off SSRIs (at which point the die may have been more or less cast for you, in the short- to medium-term) -- but agreeing to go on them in the first place. With all due respect to your situation, this is the shittiest comment I have read on this site in a very long time. If you somehow think that belittling another's medical history is okay, you seriously need to grow a bit of compassion.