I think that you understand the problem is with you. You are looking at that experience through a lens that distorts the reality of the situation. You left that

I think that you understand the problem is with you. You are looking at that experience through a lens that distorts the reality of the situation. You left that job for a reason! If you are constantly searching for that perfect combination, you are not going to find it. You are chasing the dragon. And even if you find it, it will eventually change and become unpalatable to you. The answer is within you. You can change the environment you are in. Expend considerable energy doing so. In the end, you might find you were right back in that happy place you were looking for.