I agree poof has some good points. You don't really define "meh," which means you haven't defined the problem in detail. Or perhaps multiple problems, which you

I agree poof has some good points. You don't really define "meh," which means you haven't defined the problem in detail. Or perhaps multiple problems, which you could prioritize and tackle individually. If the delta is too big, shrink the delta. And I caution against making "passion" the goal. That's a myth. You just need people being productive. I know a few brilliant people who don't show any signs of passion or excitement, but they're prodigious without being egotistical, which is the best you can hope for. I don't know your situation, but part of my problem was that best practices produce overhead, which feels like wasted effort if you're not getting yelled at for big errors or missed deadlines. And it's worse if you're not getting yelled at for big errors, but are getting pushed for deadlines. But then you're racking up technical debt, and there's a lot of material on that.