Out of curiosity, roughly how old are you? You describe me at an earlier age, and while I can't say it gets BETTER...it gets "better" as you age. The other thi

Out of curiosity, roughly how old are you? You describe me at an earlier age, and while I can't say it gets BETTER...it gets "better" as you age. The other thing I'm really interested in is a deep examination of your comment "When I have a choice...due to fear." Is it always due to fear, or due to preference? That could be a breakthrough for you, to examine this...there's a difference between the two, and a lot of times I would ascribe that feeling to fear, it was actually preference...a choice to avoid the fear. If I could push through that--rarely by my own will, but more often just by circumstances--the fear would subside and I would realize that the preference was what was broken. Not that it is fixed now, or anything...