I respect your suggestion as therapy is an extremely important part of tackling any issue of mind. I do feel, however, treatment should be physician led, especi

I respect your suggestion as therapy is an extremely important part of tackling any issue of mind. I do feel, however, treatment should be physician led, especially since there could be a physical issue that both the OP and a therapist may not pick up on. It doesn't seem likely but then again: I'm no physician. Books, as I've recommended else where, such as Feeling Good by David Burns can also help. Of all the self-help books available, ones based in science and backed with research will help best. I hope all comments here give you a new way forward and some hope. The best thing to help yourself is to avidly research as much as you can about mood, treatment, advice and strategies so you become your own expert of the problem you face. Of all indicators of a successful outcome in psychiatric treatment, deep insight into the problem is a big one. After all, a problem thoroughly understood is half the problem solved.