A friend of mine have read your post. He doesn't have an account, so I include here his message: Dude, I know your situation very well from my own life experie

A friend of mine have read your post. He doesn't have an account, so I include here his message: Dude, I know your situation very well from my own life experience. 100% familiar. I've gone past it. If you wanna know how - keep reading: 1. If you've reached undesired places in your life - it for sure means that you've followed the wrong roads. Gone the wrong path for you. What you harvest now, is the plants you've been sowing all of your life, until now. Keep sowing the same seeds, you'll keep harvesting the same results. I would suggest you to doubt and question everything you thought and believed about life, and recalculate route... ;-) 2. Here are the good news: Have you asked yourself why do you post this question here in the web, instead of jumping out of the window?.. What is that urge inside you that makes you wanna live?? Wanna be happy?? Block all your thoughts aside, just focus on that infinitely deep urge of inside of you, that made you come here and ask for help. This urge alone is the answer, the key for you to get out of the mud, and live your life the way you want them to be. You might, however, have to let go and give up things (you think) you want - in order to break out of your own jail. In other words - GET OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE. Don't hold anything back. Drop all of your attachments. Be willing TO SACRIFICE EVERYTHING, in order to attain that which is really important to you. Do you even know what it is?.. If not, finding it out will be a good start. ;-) 3. Get into a group of ppl like you. A group of searchers. Study together, practice together, share your experience s and problems with each other. That's crucial for you and will help you way beyond you can imagine. Just do it. I've started by searching google with all questions I had about life, girls, love. Don't prejudge anything. Go with whatever speaks to your heart. If it feels good - you're on the right way!!! 4. Lack of sex IS the reason for you unwillingness to live. Sex is life force in our body. Once that vital enrgey is surpressed and block inside of us, all of the universe becomes meaningless!!! I want you to notice a very important point: These two problems are circularly dependant!!! They CREATE EACH OTHER. You are caught in a loop of no sex - no life desire - no sex - and so on. One sure way to break out of this miserable loop was given to you in part 2 in my answer. :-) I could write here a whole book for you, but I think you got enough. I will finish with a quote of Tyler Durden (fight club, (RSD one is also highly recommended)): "It's only after you've lost everything, that you are free to do anything." Have an awesome journey.